Rebbe Nachman says… Do you really think we love what we want to love? Most of us love everything we don’t really want to love.
Friends, sometimes you can spend a thousand years, and only in the last minute of your life is it clear to you that everything you did in your life you didn’t want to do it. “This is not what I want.”
When do you reach the moment that it is clear to you; “What do I really love? What do I really want?” It is at those great moments when you are alone with G-d. When your own preciousness is shining so much. We need this the most.
Why is it that when you stand by the holy Wall something happens to you and you realize, that maybe all those things you want, you don’t really want.
Friends, I just want you to open your hearts. What is the holy Wall? How did King Solomon build the holy Temple? King Solomon collected the preciousness of every human being in the world. Unbelievable. And from that he built the House of G-d. Obviously he didn’t build it just from stones. That is just the outside. But the inside….
Your love gets stronger
Like exercising muscles, the more you feel love, the stronger your ability to love will get.
It is only if you love what you really want to love that your ability to love becomes stronger. But if you love something which, deep down, you don’t love, then the deep muscles of love are not worked on.
How much can you love money? Let’s put it on that level. Loving your child with all your heart, is different from the way that the most rotten, low creature loves money. These two different kinds of love do not really have the same effect on the heart, so the one who loves money is not really exercising his love muscles, right? You see, each time you love someone who you really want to love, your ability to love gets stronger. If you love something you shouldn’t love, and you don’t really want to love, you are just wasting your love, and not exercising your love muscles.
Each time you give money to a poor man, your muscles of giving are being exercised and strengthened.
From the book:
Rebbe Nachman Says Book by Rabbi Shlomo Carlebach